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Best Laid Plans….

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Today had an appointment first thing and then was going busking in town. Later on I had intended to do some weights after  the little one was in bed.  That was before I woke in the middle of the night from a weird dream with such a jolt that something went twang by my shoulder blade.  It’s happened once before so this time I didn’t think I was having a heart attack, I just hobbled downstairs, took the last dose of cocodamol and tried to get some sleep.  Luckily for me I am blessed with friends who will take the little one to school as I can’t drive the heavy old van like this and also that our village, however tiny has a pharmacy.

I got overtaken on my way to the pharmacy by a gentleman in a mobility scooter. I bought coffee and a newspaper from the Spar Shop…. Today my body is less like a temple and more like a Dystopian theme park.  When it hurts less to breathe I will do some gentle stretching and if I can find a tennis ball anywhere I’ll do some rolling against a door frame as I can feel a knot as hard and bumpy as a walnut by my shoulder blade. In the mean time, the best policy is to keep moving and keep busy as what I really want to do is just moan a lot and maybe cry a bit …. neither of which will help as much keeping mobile and anyway there’s no point moaning if there’s no one to hear you do it!!!!

Onwards and upwards.  I now have the day to finish off Beaky. My shoulder means that any proper housework is out of the question but a bit of cutting and sewing, a bit of knitting maybe later or maybe even starting to make Bo, the basic head puppet will keep me busy and be food for the soul….. I’ll see how I get on.

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Gentleness and Balance

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I wanted to work on puppets today… but I didn’t sleep.  Well that’s not true, I slept with my little girl which amounts to the same thing really. And that’s on the back of several really rubbish nights sleep.  Anyway, I felt pretty rough… so after teaching Pilates this morning I took a nap and I felt a bit better but not for long. It’s frustrating.

Time was I would have ploughed on regardless.  Thinking maybe I have some sort of magic energy pot. I don’t. No one does.  There’s only so much gas in the can and I’ve got three classes to teach tonight.  So a day of fairly easy admin. Trying to decide on colours (ok not so easy).  Working out how many 10mm needles I’ll need etc.  So no puppets today.

The world won’t notice if the puppets aren’t started today but I will and it will cost me in energy and imbalance.  And chances are I’ll make a right cods of it and burn myself no end with the hot glue etc etc.  Today is about being gentle with myself.  After all, I was a friend of mine and I came over all tired, I wouldn’t start cracking the whip yelling ‘come on get some work done’.  I’d make coffee and hunt round for some cake.  I’m kind like that.  Be kind to everyone, but most of all yourself.